I'm leaving this xanga site! I will only tell K-chan what my new username will be. I will also go under a new identity, so don't even try to find me. So...yeah. This is my last post as "Child_ofthe_Fall":::
Sorry! It's on notebook paper! And it's compressed (Badly)! Just click on it to see it! Oy! Anyways...
Goodness! I haven' beens ons in a long times and I's only gots ones comment ( Thanks yas, Shio-chan! That's whats I'm's callin' ya nows! =D It reminds mes of my cat! )!!! Nobody loveses me! Where the HELL is K-chan?!? He saids when hes lands in Ireland, he woulds update, but NOOOOOs!!! (*.°) Whats if his plane CRASHED-ED-ED-ED-DED?!? No, 'causes Sa-chan called me and said theys gots their safetelly. Ooooooo-kay den! Nevaminds, ja?
How is everybody? I feels so much betta, now! I onlys gots two hours of sleeps and I ams so friggen hypers! My head doesn't evens hurts at alls, pwa da!!! Okay, I just ate foods, Chicken wings. Yummy wings. The computers makes-es my head hurts nows! Alls bettas!
Yeps! 'Tis sketchy-eshy, but It's alls finished-ed, pwa da! J-fer-chan said it looks likes me. And I says no it don't.
~Shuberry-chan the Ryuichi Fan ( my new siggie!!! )
I liked her better when she was acting like me. What happend? I don't know. God, today sucked. She decide to teel her sister about her arm. Big mistake. She told their mother, and now she is being overdramatic. I say Harinni needs to get revenge by telling her father that her sister smokes. He will beat her ass, and I will enjoy it very much. But she loves her sister too much to do something like that, fucking pansy.
Blood, blood tastes so good. My head hurts even more than yesterday. It hurts so much I can barely feel it. Inu didn't notice my arm, or at least I don't think she did. I hope not. Please don't notice Inu. I'll cry. I told Jasmine about me, you know, cutting myself. She pinky swore she wouldn't tell anyone, and she's always been nice to me, so I will trust her with my secret. Truth be told, I have been cutting myself for 8 years. I'm 13, you do the math. But the pain I feel everyday has only multiplied since I was little, around 5. I used to dig my nails into my skin, and somehow, I would be satisfied. I'm scared. What if someone tells? Will they send me away to some mental camp? Will they lock me up and label me as some crazy freak? I am a crazy freak. People always tell me that. Sad. So sad. So very very sad. I cried last night. I couldn't help it. My head was throbbing as it is now. I wanted to scream out all of my secrets to the world, but Soonichi told me I needed to sleep. I do feel very tired. I'm so tired. I would sleep all night and all day if I could. I decided not to sleep, but to write poetry, but I was so fucked up last night, that it sounds horrifying if read aloud.
-Haruhara Awasaki
Dumb ass should have slept longer. She's an idiot. All she's been doing is complaining about how much her head hurts, and how good it feels when she is bleeding. I wish she would just shut up. Harinni is always putting on a mask, a mask of happiness, one that contains the essence of a three year old. Rather annoying if you ask me. I know, you didn't ask.
My head hurts like shit. I cut myself again, a big one on my right arm. Wait 'till you see it, Inu-kun, I think you'll scream...everyone screams...Oww god! My fuckin head's throbbing! My lip hurts. I cut that on sunday, it looks horrible. My blood tastes so good, though. My head hurts my head hurts myheadhurtsmyheadhurts it fuckin' hurts, goddammit...ow...Zazu wont shut the hell up. I think some people at school are avoiding me 'cause I'm Bisexual. My head hurts...owwwww.......
Didn't even sign off. It is nasty, though, the cut I mean.
Shuberry-chan the Ryuichi fan is gone forever*
